Warhammer39999.com turned 10 years old a few months ago and I didn’t celebrate. There are a number of reasons why, but I largely attribute it to the fact that I really haven’t been playing 40k. Instead, I’ve been playing board games on the regular (more on that later), but without 40k or painting, it didn’t feel like it’s worth blogging about.
Of course, life gets in the way as well, but I’m going to lean on the first convenient excuse.
But more than that, I also have been needing some sort of change. When I think about it, I think the core reason is that my best friend moved away. Life is a series of hellos and goodbyes, I get it. It’s just hard because I seem to make a great friend, and share time with them, and they wind up moving away. Maybe that has something to do with the fact that I live in Alaska, but I think that’s largely just life in general.
Anyway, I’ve known him since high school, and we were never very close. Well, a couple of years ago, he went through a divorce and I reached out to him. Turns out, he’s pretty awesome, so we spent alot of time together. He had a plan to move out of state when we reconnected, but it was all based upon multiple contingencies, and they seemed like they’d never come to fruition.
Last year, things changed though, and it started to look inevitable. I think that’s really the reason why I was feeling down and looking for some sort of change. Since I couldn’t pinpoint what was the root cause, I couldn’t figure out how to resolve it.
Well, now that I know that it’s a loss of closeness, I decided to do something new in 2020. What’s messed up though, is that I decided that–for some reason–the answer to a lack of closeness was to cancel my weekly gaming group. Yeah, I don’t think that’s real intuitive, but that’s what I opted with.
I still love gaming, so I plan to play where possible, but maybe scaling it back is a good thing? Time will tell…